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Dear tok,i'm sorry i coudnt be there when you sick..

i wish i could be there..

i wish i could be there when you sick

i wish i could take care you when you sick

i wish i could turn back time and standing right front of you

i wish i could kiss your forehead before you go..

today,you not here anymore...

you go..and forever go..

one week ago,i kiss your forehead...

for very last time forehead kiss..

its kind hard to accept that you are now gone..

last year,i lost someone precious like you...

today,i lost you..i lost you like forever in my life..

i feel speechless at 4.55am..

i feel like lost my world for while

i keep asking why i am not there when u sick

why i am so busy with my life

why i coudnt skip for awhile and going back kiss your forehead

why i am so selfish with myself

why.....

Today,we are still standing and accept the faith that you are gone..

me,kakak,abang,syahir also mama have to accept that you are now gone..

even we love you so much,we hope you still can create moment of life with us..

but Allah loves you more,more than us....

and tok...this is me,siti nur bahirah binti bukhari..i have something to tell you..

this is for you 

"no matter what,you always be my one and only tok,never be replace.i love you.i love you more than you know,semoga tok ditempatkan di kalangan orang yang beriman,Al-Fatihah"

 

Sehari terpisah macam seratus

Seratus terpisah macam

sepuluh ratus

Sepuluh ratus macam seribu terus

Itulah parahnya kasih yg lurus

Tiada ada paksasn nk ditebus 

Melainkan rindu pada yg kudus

Bsgai bulsn ditelan kabus

Bagai ksram dibawa arus

tiada manusia rela putus

Melainkan hidup merana terus

Akibat peristiwa yang khusus

Fitrah hayat jasad yg kurus

Dimamah masa dan jurus

Tiada penawar untuk direbus

Tiada racun nk diurus

Hanya derita yg rakus

Menanti mangsa diutus

Talian hayat yang halus

Tersilap urus mudah. putus.

-Jaafar saidin

wan,please be strong...

we are always here and be there for you.

we are always love you.

take care,tok wan.

Asssalamualaikum....